Im really bad at saying goodbye, so lets just pretend we're playing hide and seek.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH ITS HAPPENING!!!!

Saying goodbye it’s never an easy task for anyone, and even though this is not a real goodbye since I’ll only be gone for 15 months, it sure felt like one.  Yesterday was officially my last day home and of course the entire family was there all day long just drinking coffee, cooking and just enjoying a day together showing all of their love and support.  Tears were also part of this last days, but not from me. Somehow I had managed to not fully register the full impact of this trip and even though the excitement and emotions were there, I was treating these last days like any other.  My little cousin Vanessa who is 6 years old was away in Miami for vacation and almost didn’t even get to say goodbye to me. She knew I was leaving and she was completely fine with the idea or so I thought.  At the end of the day, she says with her biggest smile and excitement “Pipito (me) tomorrow I want to go to the pool with you!!!” my sister knowing that I won’t be there, replies “ Vane he’s gone tomorrow.” In literally 1 second Vanessa started crying hysterically and jumped on me to hug me, needless to say my tears were now pouring down my face.  My sister looks at us recording us crying and says “Pipito Im very very sad inside, but outside I’m really happy, that’s why I’m not crying.”

I didn’t understand why Vane was fine one moment and the other this idea of me leaving was something unbearable. This morning I knew the feeling. After pulling an all nighters with my Goddess Liz it was time to wake everyone else up at 5:30 am to head over JFK.  Going to the airport was Laila, Lizzie, Papi, Mami, Grandma, and of course my princess Karla. In the car ride I was completely fine until my dad put the car on parking outside the airport. This ball of emotion that was stuck somewhere in my body exploded the second I gave my dad a hug. From there on you can probably imagine how intense this picture got.  It was scary to give the last goodbye and walk into this airport by myself not knowing what awaits me.  There was a huge sense of solitude and yet so much room empty for new memories. My head kept turning back and tears kept coming at random times which made my eyes super red and made security very suspicious lol.

NOW I’m currently flying over Italy, we have being on the air for about 9-10 hours of quick naps, lots of conversation, and of course HUMMUS yay!!! The energy in the cast is already perfection, everyone taking a big breath after seeing how amazing and friendly everyone is. You could tell this morning that everyone had just said goodbye to someone very special in their life but little by little we were feeling the warm and satisfying comfort we were giving each other without knowing each other’s names yet.

Bullet points!!!

• -       Should we sleep when we get there at 3am or go to the beach see the sunrise
• -       There’s apparently more than one house where we’re staying.
• -       Watching movies in the plane in Hebrew just to pretend I understand
•      We still have to meet 10 Israelis that will join the cast!!!